I was born in a small city near to Mexico City into a family that raised me around principles and values like hard work, integrity and excellence. I’m the oldest of four girls and due to our family circumstances (two working parents, a family business, dad’s graduate studies) I learned since very little to be responsible and take care of myself and others.
My parents talk about me as a child too mature for her age; I really had no choice.
As a middle-class family, we never struggled to have our basics need cover: food, shelter, clothing; but cash wasn’t sitting around either. My parents highly valued education and were willing to sacrifice a lot to put us through private schools and we all, to show gratitude for those visible sacrifices, outperformed in school. As any other family, there were areas where we succeeded and areas where we struggled, my parent’s marriage has always been one of the later since I can remember, and while it’s not up to me to talk about it, it impacted my childhood.
I decided I wanted to get an undergraduate education abroad when I was a fourteen; I still remember the day when I said that to my dad in the car. However, based on our family circumstances, that seemed like a possible, yet improbable dream. I’ve always been stubborn about goals, because I honestly believe that we have the power to make anything happen for ourselves if we are willing to pay the price. I worked hard to continue my high education through scholarships and when the time came, I applied and got accepted into a US college. On Jan 1st, 2010, the eighteen-year-old me and my two pieces of luggage departed for Utah, to pursue my dream, leaving behind what felt like my whole life. I’d never felt so much fear, uncertainty and sadness in my life, but I’m glad I was able to overcome them.
College was the most exciting, challenging, rewarding, humbling and character building experience in my life
I started working early in my freshman year to help pay for my expenses and became 100% financial independent before going into my twenties. To this day, I firmly believe that the growth I experienced during those four years would have taken me at least a decade to achieve if it hadn’t been for college.
I went into my twenties with a heavy weight on my shoulders originated from the labels given to me over the years, the weight of living up to them, the expectations that my family, society and religion had established about myself and the responsibilities that I had taken over the years in an effort to take care of others.
The transition into adulthood happened without even noticing and I made decisions that would impact the rest of my twenties; like deciding on a major, staying in a long-distance relationship, finding a job after college and eventually deciding to come back to Mexico.
After almost six years living abroad, I packed life as I knew it in six pieces of luggage and took a plane back home full of mixed feelings, wondering if I had taken the right decision and not knowing what to expect from the following years. It took me some months to re adapt, but life back home hasn’t been anything but enjoyable. I found a good job that I enjoy in a company that has allow me to grow my career.
In my mid-twenties I met new people from different backgrounds and with different point of views, which enriched my own perspective. I also developed strong friendships, that I keep and highly value to this day. Family and romantic relationships were full of highs and lows. As time and my financial situation started to permit it, I started to explore new things, try new experiences and take care of myself in ways that I couldn’t in the past. Things changed a lot during those years, myself included
As I transitioned into my late twenties, the weight of the labels, expectations and responsibilities and the baggage of the past started to feel like an invisible yet heavy emotional load on my shoulders from which I needed to unburden. A couple of years ago, I started, Hold that Thought, initially as a private space to unload my mind, but it was not until last year, when I dared to go public with it. So…
Here I am today, intentionally embarked in an internal work and consciousness journey. Learning to unlearn, letting go of the labels, fears, judgments and structures, redefining myself, accepting and letting the not-so-confident, not-so-brave and not-so-strong version of myself be exposed!
Unapologetic Thoughts 