Decisions. You’re probably tired about me writing about them, but it seems to be this year’s theme for me. I wont drag it, here’s this post conclusion the worst thing about making a decision is having to make the same twice.
If you’ve been reading me recently you know that a few weeks back I made a major career decision. One of those decisions that have impacts on more than one area of your life. I decided to leave my curren job, to take on a major professional challenge. This was requiring me not only to reallocate, but to start from scratch (literally).
Despite me being sure about it. I won’t lie I’ve been dreading (not doubting) the decision. Probably, because it totally takes me out of comfort zone. However, as mucha as I was struggling, I was certain about it. Until now.
This week my new manager announced she’s moving to another role by the end of the month and that her backfill is coming from outside the company to take on what I already knew was a close-to-imposible challenge.
As soon as I hang up the call with her, my initial thought was: I’m backing up from my decision. The following days felt chaotic, but I’ve learned over the years that it is in those times when you need to recognize your feelings of uncertainty, sit with your vulnerability and turn to your support system. Over the following days I call and met with a few friends that I trust.
I didn’t get from them the answer I was hoping for, but I received empathy. One thing was certain, we all agree was a difficult decision. I had both professional and personal reason to make the decision, but out of the professional ones, working for M was 45% of the professional reasons. Now that’ she was out of the picture, I wasn’t sure about it. So, while I felt understood by taking to my friends, I needed a professional point of view, so the following Monday I talked to my mentor. Someone who I admire and trust. He confirmed that I was reading the whole situation correctly and that if I decided to go through it this was literally a coin in the air. A 50/50 chance.
That made the decision process harder, because one thing is making the decision without knowing whats coming, but going into a decision with a certain level of understanding of what’s ahead. Then, you are going in knowing exactly what you’re getting into. However, I could not ignore the all the personal reason why I had made the decision weeks earlier.
So, as much as I’m ashamed to admit, I’m choosing to believe what more than one friend or mentor told me in the last days, that I’ve the grit and the character to face whatever comes ahead. As risky or crazy it may sound and as much as this decision is taking me outside of my comfort zone I’m choosing to pursue it. I’m leaving a job that dominate now, leaving a solid professional network, giving up the reputation I’ve crested over the years, selling everything I own, making the move and starting from zero.
What led me to decide? I ask myself with what idea will iwhat will i feel more comfortable with in some years And truth be told I’m more comfortable with regretting the decision in some months and coming bsck, then I’m wondering for the rest of my life ‘What would have happen if I’ve decided to go there?’
So here it is, for having grit and being bold!
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